2014 has begun and with it a new opportunity for fresh starts. I have several goals for the new year. We don’t know what the new year will hold for any of us, so plans are flexible by necessity; but we will set our goals and work towards their completion.

We are hoping to complete the writing of our book by the end of the year. We have no idea how realistic that goal is. If Beloved is able to complete a project he is working on and gets paid for all his extensive work he has already put into it, there should be resources to finance publishing it; or at least to get a new computer which might help me get the book finished by the goal date.

I have a children’s book written which I hope to get published by spring, so the income from that might help towards publishing of this book. Time will tell, I guess.

You may be wondering who is writing this for you all. It’s a puzzle I am trying to piece together myself. I know who I am; but it has been a very long time since I have been out. When I was out previously I experienced the loss of time very differently than this time. Before it was as if I went to sleep one night and woke up much later – except for not having a clue about what happened while I was away, I adjusted to the new routine and living space and carried on. This time I actually feel the time loss. It seems like a very long time transpired for me as well as whoever else was out in the interim. I literally can’t remember the name I chose for myself the last time I was out. I remember the events that happened the last time I was out and the things that happened while I was in are unfamiliar to me – that much is “normal” for a person with DID; but I feel older. In fact I feel much older.

I’m afraid if I try to clarify anymore I will just make you as confused as I am. It’s just too hard to explain the difference in the way I am experiencing the time loss. I wonder if the change is due to advancement towards integration that others made while they were out. It’s just a guess, but maybe a good one.

Anyway, one of the goals I have is to keep more up-to-date with making posts on the site. As always, we welcome comments and thoughts from those who read this blog. Hoping the advancing year will bring many blessings to you and yours.