It’s been so long since we have posted anything. It’s hard to keep trying to keep up to date when so many things are demanding what little effort we have. My brother who has been a soul mate supporter of ours has deteriorating health. He is frequently in the hospital and about a month ago was in hospice. One of these times he won’t be able to get to the hospital in time and he will be gone from us, which is a very weighty thought for us.
Our SAD lights broke on us and there was a delay in getting a temporary replacement to use while ours is being fixed. Even though we have been using the replacement as we are supposed to, still the depression that has settled in again hasn’t lifted in the least.
Our excessive need for sleep has reached a plateau and consumes a huge amount of time every day. My dear friend has moved to a town farther away from us and that makes it harder for us to get time together. We are both feeling the lose of that precious time together.
I guess I should have said this at the start of this post. I’m the personality who was out much of the time during adolescence and early parenting days. I was also the personality who first got us into therapy with the psychiatrist who diagnosed the DID. For the first time I am attempting to write my story, and as you can likely imagine it’s a major endeavor. I get a little bit written down and then my heart feels so heavy with depression that I have to leave it for a day or two before I come back to it and write a little bit more. Most likely that will mean that I will be doing most of the posting for a while. I’m not sure what name I should use, but I will need to come up with something soon.
I guess that will be all for this post, except to say that it sure would be nice to hear from someone or two of you who are reading these posts.