Category Archives: History

Not Bad; But Broken

So much is still unsettled. Setting the rest aside for the moment, my therapist suggested that maybe instead of thinking of my parents as good or bad or both, I should think of them as broken. That is far easier … Continue reading

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Good? Bad? Both?

It’s a deeply perplexing problem for us. We have attempted to answer it for a life time. Were my parents good? Were they evil or deceptive or tricky or just plain wrong? Were they good for other people but not … Continue reading

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A Foretaste Continued…

This time I will copy/paste the journal entry I started to write about last night. So here it is, and then I will write about it – Bullet Points: . Counseling w/ Larry – don’t try to be creative. Just … Continue reading

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A Foretaste of Things to Come…Almost

It’s early morning hours and I am finally finding myself able to focus on…me. I’ve been dodging it now for days, not wanting to get back into the mode of healing again. It hurts so hard. I kept it under … Continue reading

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Hard Times for People with DID

I have been going through files on my computer trying to find where I had been writing my book. I have many files designated for use in the book, but so far I haven’t been able to find the actual … Continue reading

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My Daddy, my hero no more?

This is an excruciating post to write. It’s about an extreme paradigm shift. My entire life, even in the context of the many of me, my father has always been my hero. If I could write down all the reasons … Continue reading

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Who’s Fault Was It?

For so many years I have had a deep wound in my heart about having an abortion when I was 16, or at least that is how I have framed it. In reality we were tricked into it, or perhaps … Continue reading

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A Balancing Act

I heard a message yesterday while listening to the radio about the importance of recognizing the balancing of grace and truth. The point being made was that people tend to prioritize one or the other. This is true in their … Continue reading

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Infancy and Early Childhood Memories

It’s a logical question to ask. How can anyone believe that they can recall events and experiences that happened during their infancy and early childhood days? Most people can recall a handful of memories that predate their classroom experiences, if … Continue reading

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Intimate Insight

Earlier tonight I was taking a drive with my youngest son. He will be getting married in less than a week from today, so we are cherishing the time we can spend together before he moves out. Our conversation turned … Continue reading

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