Category Archives: Intimate External Relationships

A Sad and Lonely Day

Today was the anniversary of my mother’s death. Although the intensity of my feelings has subsided, I still feel the pain of the loss. The injustices of what followed only make the pain more intense. I’ve worked hard to heal, … Continue reading

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Faith as a Multiple

One of the significant things that stands out for me in the other DID blogs is the absence of faith, specifically faith in Jesus Christ. As I look back over the years I have been in therapy, I know that … Continue reading

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Still Amazed

Since I have been out (for the past couple months) I have learned a lot. My therapy sessions with Lori and Larry are mind boggling. I find that my whole sense of self-worth and purpose is being changed around. In … Continue reading

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Not Bad; But Broken

So much is still unsettled. Setting the rest aside for the moment, my therapist suggested that maybe instead of thinking of my parents as good or bad or both, I should think of them as broken. That is far easier … Continue reading

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Good? Bad? Both?

It’s a deeply perplexing problem for us. We have attempted to answer it for a life time. Were my parents good? Were they evil or deceptive or tricky or just plain wrong? Were they good for other people but not … Continue reading

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Fatherly Free Fall

I still feel like I’m in a free fall with the issues with my dad. I’m Plex – the rebel. I was created out of a tenacious rebellion struggling for survival. I don’t know how to be any different. I … Continue reading

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Still Confused About Dad

It’s hard to know what to write. There is a conflict within my own head about what codependent really means or how it applies to my dad. He is definitely in some unhealthy relationships in which he plays a significant … Continue reading

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Struggling Onward

The changes in my meds are causing me to have severe migraines, so I’m in bed a lot. I’m trying to use the time to contemplate the new turn of events with my therapy. Sometimes I think I’m heading down … Continue reading

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Continuing to Sort through…

Everything is still so very heavy. My body feels like a lead weight that I have to drag behind me wherever I go. It’s been a few days now, and I’m still not sure I’ve really slept at all except … Continue reading

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Continuing Again…

It was a long and painful night last night. I’m not sure I really slept at all, but my prayer last night gave me what I needed to at least go to bed and rest. Today was Sabbath, and I … Continue reading

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