Okay, I admit it. I’ve been stalling – avoiding what I knew I needed to do. The fact is, I started out several times to address what I knew I needed to do, only to be sidetracked in a different direction. Actually starting this post is a big step forward. Maybe now I will be able to make some progress.

My tasks include ditching the shame/blame on me for Houston. It’s forgiven. Now I absolutely must forgive myself. All of myselves. I need to overcome or override the subtle messages that I am being punished by God so that once again I can embrace all He wants for and from me. His grace has been sufficient for much tougher challenges, and it will be enough for this one too.

I also need to do some significant writing for the book about my years married to first husband. Perhaps I feel guilty for that as well. It plays the old “I’m worthless” tune and I run away from it as fast as I can, The fact is, I’m an awesome complex creation of the almighty God – not bragging…I know very well that God did a masterpiece in everything and everyone He created. No exceptions.

Now I’ve done my self pep talk. It’s time to end this post and get on with writing for the book.